The Girl Of My Dreams

2011-06-17T20:40:00.001+08:00

If I told you I want you back in my life,
Would you love me like how you did before?

2011-06-11T23:27:00.002+08:00

Totally...

I know I asked for it. But I wouldn't know it will be such a hard and pain decision. I don't care if anyone reads this and thinks I'm some two-face bitch. But I'm just gna say, It's really hard. And it will help if you pay a little more attention to how I feel now.

Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around.

2011-06-10T20:53:00.003+08:00

Woohoo. Haven't been blogging for months. Feeling incredibly sorry. Wanted to update about my life. Making it more exiting in the blog. But regrettably I think my life haven't been very wonderful. Feeling very very scared for Midyr. Trying very very hard to study. But I'm still lacking of confidence. I kept having this mindset that everything will go to a waste during the exams. Sigh. I really really wna do well. ):

Currently feeling a little bit lonely.Just feeling a lil crappish now. Don't like when friends (a minor few) talk to me just becus they want something. It's like what do you take me for. When I thought you were just nice and being friends. But I realise you were just using me to know more about other person. And when you don't need it, you don't talk to me anymore. It's damn wtf really. -.- I tried talking to you for quite afew times, and you just pms me. I really don't like to the maximum. You don't even call us for meet up and you expect us to call you. Idk what had gotten into you. I very much want this friendship. But since you're not trying. Then that's not friendship alr. Friendship is about laughter and giving in sometimes, trying to be the friendlier one, the helpful one. But you're none of those. Ohwellllllls. I'm sorry. Just saying. Don't assume if you don't know me well to know who I'm talking about. If this post irritates any of you, I'm truly sorry. It's my blog (:

Ahhhh. I'm lacking of life. Lacking of music. Lacking of music. Lacking of fun in my life now. One more thing, NO MONEY!!!! ): I wna straighten my hair, I wna buy new shoes, I wna watch movie, I wna buy birthday gift. But it all can't come true cus I'm seriously using up money like some money-sucker or something. Damn irritated. Oh, I wna get iPhone white when my plan ends. But apparently, my beloved brotherrrr doesn't allow me to get iPhone. Cus he thinks it's for business people. -.- Hello, there are apps for people like us. Tsk! Damn it. I really wna pay for my own handphone bill no seriously. But yet again. MONEY. ):

Sigh, enough of ranting. Must try to stop using the computer. But I'm kind of giving myself a break now. (: Cus tmrw is the weeeeeekend!

2011-03-28T22:58:00.004+08:00

It doesn't feel right studying anymore.

Heyyy thereeee. I'm back from Indonesia and all I can say was, I don't feel relax there. ): Sigh. It's like we are all so busy preparing and everyone was doing what they were suppose to do. I don't even have the time to sleep or buy snacks for myself. It was quite boring too, cus since everyone was busy, I was just stoning there staring into space. Tskkk. I hate the Indonesia immigration system though, it's super super sucky I swear I can die just to get my luggage checked.

Before flying, met up with the Girlfriends at Bugis and we had some good chilling session. Had Ahchew dessert and some Jco yoghurt. Omg. I superrrr imba long never eat yoghurt alr. I think Jco one like quite worth it ah. Hehe X) Went to meet the Babes the next day at Orchard for some great shopping session. Ate at this Japanes restaurant which I think I'll go back quite afew times. They serve good foooooood!! Should go try kayyyy. (: Lastly, met up with Boyf at MS to have Swensens for dinner. Whoooooo.

Totally feeling like holiday mood. Ahh, fuckkkkkkk. I cannot stress how much I hate school now, after Blocks. There will be Midyears and so on. Okayokay, I shan't complain too much. But it's like. Super fuck-ed life I swearrrrrrrrrrrrrr! ): Zz ttm. Not to plus those Adiv shit. And PW and Block test result will be out this week. I fucking dread. -.-

I really really wna just end my life. Sigh.

2011-03-24T23:31:00.002+08:00

Partayyyye!

Ohmyyyy, block test finally overrrrr! Didn't feel that sense of satisfaction though. Like last year, it was during the midyear when I know I'm gna fail every single subject. Yes, I think I'm gna fail every single subject once again. Damnnnn. I think like have to see the Principal knowww! And I'm sure he'll persuade me to do some U-turning to get my foundations right all over again. Wtheckkkk. Feel damn cui whenever I thought of that. Sigh.

Had Floorball camp during hols and I can say that it was a good one I guess. Atleast those juniors din like complain all about those tough trainings we had. It's been one week since I last touch my stick. Gna start training next week again. Adivvvvv~~~ Please be over soon. (:

Met up with Girlfs one week ago to celebrate Pling's birthday. Met up with them again today to had some chilling session. I hope I can have more such sessions with them, sighhhh.

Meeting the Babes tmrw for some shopping and I'm gna flyyyy on Saturday!! Woohoo. Atleast some time to relax while I'm away. Studying too stress alr seriously. -.- However, I'm having his major flu attack now and I really hate it. Totally drained my energy and mood. Damn retarded cannn. I think I had flu this year for don't know how many fucking times alr seriously. Cannot take it, damn cui my nose. Tsk!!

I shall go rest nowwwwwwww.

2011-03-06T12:49:00.002+08:00

Everything don't live up to your expectations.

It's been really long since I updated this blog and I feel quite guilty about it. I promised to have regular updates. So right now, gna be very very busy with block test, lecture test and class test. There's like less than 2 weeks to block test and I'm still not yet prepared for most of the subjects. I smell doomed. ):

Caught Lion King musical at Marina Bay Sands the other day and I have to say it was an awesome musical. It really gave me a damn good impression as it was like my first musical. I never watch Lion Kin cartoon before and it was really a good one. I like their songs. Fairytales songs are the best. Hehe. Okay, Taylor swift too like duh!

Had our Sports meet yesterday at Bedok reservoir. Took part in Dragonboat and Capture the Flag. It was boring at the start cus everybody was like not appearing. And hence, our boat only have 8 girls. Like super sad. ): Lost in the end. But ohwelllll, I enjoyed rowing the boat. It's been long since I row boats leh! Miss PE captain camps now where I can kayak with my own boat. hehe. (:

PS. I really am on the verge of giving up alr. I suck I know. But it's way taking too much of my time and after that, I'd always be too shag to do anything. How? I know I shouldn't whine or complain. But I sort of have too much to handle alr. Sigh.

2011-02-19T17:33:00.002+08:00

Loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Really can't stand her. She so damn amazing. Ahh, but damnnnn. Din get the chance to watch her concert. Sigh. Love her songs to the ultimate. She's just so amazing.

Weekends again. The only two days I can get my sleep back and catch up with my work. I finished almost 3/4 of DE and have yet to start on Arenes. Will try to start at night if my cramps didn't get too bad. (: Still coping well. But it's just, all those unwanted tests. Keep failing like nobody's business. Sigh. It's like block test is in a month's time. How can I help myself? I really don't know how. I have absolutely not enough time to mug for everything. Needa do up one damn study schedule soon.

My parents leaving for Indonesia in two days time and my school fees freaking hell increased by $100. How's that? -.-I want to be a freaking PR please. Sigh.

PS. Iloveyou.

2011-02-12T20:08:00.002+08:00

Haven't been updating my blog for awhile. Had been very busy with school work, test and lots of Chinese new year visiting. It wasn't quite eventful in the first place. But ohwell, I had fun with the favourite people in Nanyang though. ((: Yay.

Ohmannnnnn. I really am tired of JC life now. I want it to end like as soon as possible. I hate studying. And all those shit stuff that made me busy and lack of sleep. I wna just nua at home and drama my ass away. But I know, after all those whinings, I still have to persevere till the end of this year. And with Boyf, I guess it won't be that bad after all. I hope. And if not for those favourite peoples in NY, I guess I'll just get emo for the whole year. DAMN IT, I WNA SCREAMMMMMMM!

Valentine's Day is round the corner!! (:

2011-02-03T22:24:00.003+08:00

JACKSON!!

Finally orientation is over!! I haven't got my day 4 pictures yet becus I forgot to put memory card into the camera. And now all the pictures is in the camera and I don't know how to retrieve it. DAMN FUCKING SAD. ): I'll try to retrieve it. Sigh. BUT ANYWAY!! Orientation 2011 was awesomesxzxzxzxz!!! It'll probably be one of my most fondest memory in Nanyang. Hehe. Made me realise how great it was to be a Nangyang student. Ohman!! HAHA (: I really like disco night.

Before I forget HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR everybody. I do not think CNY is a great festival. Damn boring. It's like my family damn formal. They don't gamble. Even they drink, they also won't ask me along cus they thought I was still underage. Sigh. So they were just having fun by themselves. While I just seat there and stone. However, still receive quite a number of angpaos. Hehe. I hope as the years pass, I'll like really bond with the mother side of the family. One day. ):

I'm really damn tired these few days. Busy-ing with orientation and cny stuffs. Anddddd, there's still holiday homework. HOWWW. I damn scared when school starts cus I think I won't be able to catch up with alot of stuffs. And I'm really scared now. ):

I don't like it when I'm not meeting Boizboiz for so long. I know I shouldn't feel this way becus after all, when studies becomes priority, I'll be damn busy and there won't be anytime left for anything. I should really try to get used to it. Sighhhhh ):

PS. BUT I CAN'T RIGHT NOW.

2011-01-30T12:42:00.004+08:00

It's the Orientation 2011 Madness YO!! :D

My fellow OGL mates Yengfai and Giokqin! Love being high with them!! Whoo.

The JACKSONS MACHO MEN AND FINE LADIESSSSSSS!

And of course, not to forget my JACKSON 4 BABIES. ((((:

Jacksons very good!!

My dearest cute boizboiz says HI (:

Beware. The high-ness of Loudeedee. Woohooooooooo!

Whooooooo. Orientation 2011 was indeed awesome. It's only two days and I'm starting to feel sad when orientation ends. ): I really don't know how to describe the fun I'm having now. Made alot of new friends and this orientation thing really sort of bond everyone together. HAHA. I likey likey! Though the first day of orientation wasn't that much of high, but it gets better on the second day I guess. Hope the third and forth will be great. GO JACKSONS! STELLA LOVE YOU.

Damn. I'm starting to get worried for my work/tutorials/lectures now. Like, after CNY, we really need to have lots and lots of make up sessions. Sigh. And now, when the new J1s are here, we needa squeeeeze in the canteen again! Damn sad. ): Ohwellllllllls.

Not to forget. Happy 1st Month-sary! 270111~~

2011-01-21T21:26:00.002+08:00

Nanyang JC open house!!

I cannot stress how busy school life is now. Test and test coming up and I really feel so tired everyday. Like mega tired. I'm always feeling dead the moment I reach home and hence, I won't be doing my school work but just sleep my night away. Have been sleeping very very early like 10plus 11 kind. Is it good or bad huh?

Next, have decided to give myself a rest from floorball. As in permanent rest I mean. I thought I alr decided and I'd not feel so stressed after quitting. But I realise, I feel quite ): Like, they had alr been part of me. I see them every time in school and they never fail to put a smile on my face. The things they did, the time we shared after training. I kind of miss it. And now, when I see them in school, I feel so awkward and different. It's like, we no longer have the connection alr. I don't like this. Why am I being such a loser, giving up when competition is nearing and not wanting to play a part. I'm such a let down. I'm sorry.

The feeling of being in school is getting better. Not becus of the work, but the people I'm with. And the food and oreo chocolate. I'm slowly getting the hang of it. Also, the motivation to start doing my revision proper is coming back too. I like this. But somehow, I feel that it will still be the same like last year. No matter how hard I try to study and revise, I won't get the result I deserve. I think I'm stupid. So, I really really wna work doubly hard.

PS. There's so much I'm worrying about.

2011-01-12T22:48:00.002+08:00

That's for sure. I hope.

Cold is getting better and I hope I'll be fully recovered tmrw. I miss the girls in school and no matter how I hate school, I still wna go and see them.

More and more tutorials coming up now. And's really irritating to know that when I finished this set of assignment, I'm given another new one. Tsk. Like never ending only. And I hate tmrw's time table. I need to wake up at 6.30 and I'm ending school at 5. Suck shit. And fuck. I realise I'll be having mens during orientation. Sucks to be the girl huh. ):

I hope I'll save up more! ):

2011-01-11T21:32:00.002+08:00

Officially starting school tmrw and I'm having a good major cold. Totally un-cool. Not gna attend school tmrw and I'm glad the doctor gave me one week mc from PE. Lol. I don't need run siols. Our time-table totally suck the shit out of me and I really hate the school system now. I want my 9am lesson! ):

O level results released yesterday and I think my brother did quite goood leh! But he failed Chinese. Abit sad. But it's still good enough for him to get into a good JC I guess. Not that I'm encouraging him to do that becus JC is really hell lot of stress. There's the scary PW and GP! Coming to think of JC, I'm still not yet done with my holiday assignment and I think I will have no energy to do that anytime soon. ):

Work check. Integration. Functions. Chem 2 tutorials and 2 papers. Geog (which I will not be doing).

Today was Nanyang JC open house and I think it's quite happening other than the fact that I'm sick and you'll see me holding tissue paper covering my nose everytime in school. I like the songs which made all of us high. I like walking around seeing friends and saying Hi. I like the feeling of being in school. I like the feeling when I get when I see SGLS. I like canteen and cafe food though cafe food was quite over-priced. I like when I get to drink oreo chocolate. (: But, I hate school when it comes to study. Sigh tttttttttm! ):

Sorry for the wordy post. I shall go faint now.

2011-01-05T21:17:00.002+08:00

Beautiful ladies day...

Ooh, school is officially starting in what 5 days. And homework still not done, test not studied. I'm a doomedgirl92. But, I really don't give a shit nowwww. Wait till the school starts, then I'll start to panic okay? Becus I'm really very sick and tired of homework and I wna enjoy my last few days of holidays. When the school starts, I'll give my best. Till then, let's just let me have my holiday mood still. (:

I had my sleep in day on Monday and I don't enjoy it. My house construction is incredibleeeee~ Went to Floorball BBQ on Tues. I mahjong-ed! After so long, I finally can get to touch tiles. Really shiok to the max. And today, I shopped till I dropped. -.- Okay, and there's this jumpsuit. I like it damn damn damn much. But it's like overly-priced!! ): Damn damn sad. So I din get it. I'm going back. Really. I still need my Vans and some go-out-shoe. (: Moneyyyyyy ):

I'll catch a grenade for ya,
Put my hand on a blade for ya,
Jump in front of a train for ya,
Do anything for ya.

2011-01-02T14:10:00.002+08:00

Thank you...

Happy 2011 everyone! 2010 was done and over and I thank God for that. I hope I can just start a fresh year with happiness overwhelming me. Hehe. However, I still have to pray that I'll have self-control over studies. And weigh the importance between friends, boyf and studies. Ahhhh. (: And also pray that I won't over-stress myself.

Have been working for the past two days and will work again tonight. I really don't want school to start cus I'd spent lesser time with the Boy. Heh. My work are not all done yet you knowwwww. I haven't get to meet the secondary school Girlfs. There is class outing tmrw and I doubt I'll be able to attend it. Sigh.

Some new year resolutions are as follows.
1. Do tutorials and revision notes on regular basis.

2. Not skip lectures.
3. Save up.
4. Smile more.
5. Less gossips.
6. Love my friends.
7. Love my Boyf.

2010-12-27T22:28:00.002+08:00

The beautiful dream that I scared it will be nightmare.

Had training at Sentosa today and it was mad hot/humid/tiring. I really can die. I swear Sentosa is not the place for me. I'm bringing those OGMs around, but I swear it will definitely be the last time. Becus I reallllllllly dislike walking. LOL. Okay. I'm lazygirlxzxz92. And I really hope our Jackson Family will be damn high. I don't like the feeling of being so dead. Hehe. (:

You took me by surprise,
And I'll never leave you alone.

2010-12-26T22:04:00.002+08:00

Would you give me one?

Happy belated Christmas everyone. didn't really celebrate it as I was busy working and I'm enjoying myself at work. Hehe. School's starting and I'm still really stubborn to stay on working. And I'm really looking forward to pay day! HAHA. Have been tolerating days without money for weeks and finally, I'm getting my pay on Tues! Muahahaha. I love you manszxzxz.

So what's the plan for this week. I'm so sad I'm left with two weeks of holidays. I'm still not yet prepared for school yet you know. So howszxzx? Anw, yep. Monday, there's OGL stuff again. I really don't want go sentosa. Feel so lazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~ Tuesday, PAYDAY. Wed, work. Thurs, out with the peoplessssss. Fri and sat, work. Sun, hopefully USS. (: But, there seems to be no plans for study dates. I'm such a failure. Sigh~

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right.

2010-12-24T12:21:00.002+08:00

The beautiful.

Had the OGL training in school and I was late. I didn't hear my alarm. And I didn't even realise I did snooze my alarm. TSK! Okay. So the training was quite okay. I'm in Jackson with Angel and Alicia. Did make alot of new friends during training. And really hope we'll work well together! (: However, the learning of dance steps was tedious. Damn tiring I can tell you. Wts. But, I sort of still prefer our orientation dance. Hehe. x)

The best part was during dinner! Had fun with the Girlfriends playing Monopoly Deal. I swear I rather play Monopoly. LOL! It was an awesome dinner and I really miss being crazy with everybody. I feel so myself yesterday you know!! Haha. It was quite a pity Hannah wasn't there. Hope to see her soon, for Starbucks. (:

Did I mention. I want to meet Rachel, Huiqing, Karen, Liying, Junie and Pingling badly?

I secretly like this picture. LOL. Idk whyyyyyyy~

2010-12-21T19:13:00.002+08:00

I wish you knew.

Time really flies. Now, I left with 2 weeks and 5 days of holidays. Omg. I swear the time left will fly like a jet plane. Serious! I still want my holidays badly. Don't want it to end. I dread my second year. I have yet to do anything constructive. Not to add on, all those test. Okay. I shall stop whining and move on alr. ):

Christmas is round the corner too. It doesn't really sound like a festive season to me. Cus to me, I'll just either stuck at home with the family who don't celebrate christmas, or I'll just work my ass off. I din even prepare presents for friends/families and I feel quite bad about it. Right now, my assets are left with 2 dollars. I still need to wait 3 days for my allowance to get in and 7 days for my pay to roll in. (:

I'll be working tmrw, and there is this OGL training in school on 23 and 27. Then I'm working on 24 and 25. There's extra pay. Hehe. I still wna continue working. Yes I am.

PS. I wna go Universal Studio badly. I don't know why. I had visited the zoo. And I really like the Lion. I think I'm influenced by Narnia. (: Hehe.

2010-12-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

This is so amazing, so amazing, so so amazing, so so so amazing.

2010-12-14T20:47:00.003+08:00

You know...

Having off for a few days and I'm suppose to be doing some good serious work. However, I din manage to finish off anything. It's all half done work. What has crept into me? Laziness, stubborn. I feel so bored of being here, in this very world. I refuse to accept that I'm going JC2 next year. I wna be like my brother. Finish Olevels, having fun working and most importantly: Don't need to study. ):

Not to add on to that. I feel so ... Lonely. Where are the people who once made me feel so happy to be alive? Where are the people who are always there when I need someone to talk to, whom I can cry over the phone with, whom I can just vent my anger and never be mad at me. I miss you.

2010-12-11T16:53:00.003+08:00

Tell me what you think.

Ohman. I have to blog something. I feel so lost without blogging. Sigh. Today is my niece's 2 years birthday. And we gna have BBQ infront of my house. That's quite interesting. Cus my cousin's and my house are right infront of each other, so they build this pit at the corridor there. It's been quite long since I had BBQ. Whoo.

Work was pretty much more fun alr since I've met new friends. Not so dead or boring now. But, when everyday I do the same thing, it really gets quite mundane. Haha. Man, I really need to stop working and start work. Okay. I've been saying this for quite some time and I really should do it. HAHA. Btw, I did one chem tut. So not that bad right. (:

Why does everybody talk to me becus they wna get close to other people through me. Tsk.

2010-12-06T20:56:00.002+08:00

So sick, so tired.

Awman. This is exactly how I'm feeling right now. Anw, just for an information. These pictures are all taken from random tumblrs. It just happens to describe how I feel and what I'm thinking nowadays. Holidays are fucking retard. I have been addicted to work recently. I promised to work only on weekends, and I ended up working quite alot of days in the week. HA. That's quite a bad thing becus I still have loads of assignment to do. Shit-ness gracious.

Had my first Floorball session today. It was a match with Rivervalley High School. And I can say that it was quite a well-done game. (Though I doubt I played well) Moreover, we still won the game. Good job Girls. So proud of everybody. I'm really glad I went. Though we're not very well bonded, I still do like those after-sessions when we ate and took pictures. (:

Movies I've watched during hols. HP7, Rapunzel. Today I caught the Narnia. It was a good show. Really enchanting. (: Someone jio me go watch Next Three Days/Little Red Riding Hood/Troy Legacy. HAHA. Okay, that's quite afew.

I realise. This is one decent post since holiday starts. My mood only lifted a little today. Saw the Babes today and I realise how stranger we're now. Hope everything will be over soon and we'll still be the same. I miss Girlfriends too.

Drop everything now,
Meet me in the pouring rain,
Kiss me at the sidewalk,
Take away the pain.

2010-12-02T15:56:00.002+08:00

Reality...

It's raining yet again. I really dislike dark days, it makes think so much about my fuck-ed up life. I wanna be loved.

2010-12-01T14:02:00.003+08:00

Life have been very life-less since holiday starts. I was just working my ass off or I'll just sleep till late noon and watch drama till late night when I'm not working. Little opportunity to get out there and let the sun shine on me. Even on days when I'm not working, my mom will make sure she have plans, so I'll have to stay at home. Damn the boredom.

I'm very sure I won't be able to finish my holiday assignment at this kind of rate. I should really start studying when I'm not working. Cus test will be coming up when school starts. What if I can't take it at the beginning and I U-turned. -.- That will be damn ridiculous right. Wts. Dread that. Okay. Self-discipline. I have to study while I'm not working. (:

I'm glad that I can be OGL for next yr. And I hope there'd be some appeal stuff for all my friends to get in too. Sincerely hope. Or, there won't be any fun too.

Nut is back from her M'sia trip. Definitely gna meet up with her one day. And the dance peeps. Wna see their cool dance.

But, will they feel the same way as me too?

2010-11-25T23:08:00.002+08:00

Sincerely hope, This will never change.

Holidays are on their way. I still don't feel the life I want yet. Or maybe, I would never feel it in this coming holidays. I'm looking forward to the night when I can sleep. That is all. All I'm doing now is just stoning in front of the laptop screen. Feeling like a couch potato. I don't even have the will to do anything. Okay, maybe I kind of look forward to working. But everybody else are gone. I'm so afraid to be alone while working. Heh.

I was wondering. When will I have the mood to do my holiday assignments. There are Math tutorial, Chem tutorial and the damn Econ shit. I don't see the light coming. ):

Everyone is flying off. Okay. I mean not literally. But they are all going overseas. Esmond has left to China. Nat has left to Malaysia. Then Xinjie, Junjie and Eric will be going for ISLE trip. Angel going Egypt! Sherm going Thai. This is bad. I wna go overseas and have fun too. Atleast, let me get away with reality for now.

Guess what. When will they ever notice.

2010-11-19T20:47:00.002+08:00

When the sun sets.

I'm currently at home, lazing on top of my fat monkey and staring blankly on the laptop screen. But right now, I'm blogging about how boring my day is today. Not today, these two days. I had PT ytd and training today. You know how life suck when I need to run. ): Okay. I'm damn lazy I admit. But that doesn't judge what kind of a person I am right? Okay, maybe it did. Ahh, whatever.

I'm damn freaking tired now I wna just plonk onto my bed and sleep till this year is over. Or maybe, I should just die now. Cus there's no meaning living. I don't find happiness here and there. Even when I'm at home, the only place where I wna be alone. My mother never fail to bug me. At school, it was soooo boring that I see no point going to school. If I can, I really wna start a new life. Maybe in America, at least, I'd have fun and easy life. Idk. My perceptions.

I wna dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

2010-11-15T20:25:00.002+08:00

It was a great chilling session

I couldn't imagine how life would be like in my JC life without all these cool people. We laughed, chilled, played and had loads of fun. Not to add those epic moments, I think it was a great time spent with them. And I wonder, what will happen next year. Would we still be as fun? Or we're gna be just strangers walking past everybody without even saying Hi. I dread that. I fear that to the ultimate.

Furthermore, it's Alevel life next year. Meansssssss, zero fun, zero life. Sigh to the maximum ): Ahh. I can't imagine studying life again. I haven't been touching my dear books/notes. I had forgotten all those lecture alr. Damn. Thursday will be the start of studying life. I don't even remember how to hold a pen alr.

Heh. I'm looking forward to Wednesday outing with the girlfriends back from Secondary school. Have so much to update everybody. And I guess, I'm getting excited in wanting to know what's going on in their life now. I miss them much-ness. I'm looking forward to Faith42 class outing (if there is), 1011 class outing, Babes outing, Floorball chalet. I'm looking forward to Holidayssss.

2010-11-10T21:18:00.002+08:00

Good job everyone! (:

Hey, rejoice in the Lord alwaysssss! My damn freaking OP is done and over with! And guess what? Say BYE to PW. Omg. Cannot believe this is happening. It's like, I remember I was still struggling with PI at the start of the year. And now, it's totally gone! Over. (:

Oh hey. Now is the start of funnnnnnnnn you know. Okay la. I wasn't really having fun yet. And what's more, my Mama queen still quite strict with me. So, ohwellllll! I wna work. Maybe. Earn some savings. Or not she gna nag me saying I don't save up. HEH. ): Sigh. So boringggg!

It's time to meet up with the Girlfs alr. Let's go have some fun and bonding session Rachel, Junie, Huiqing, Pingling, Karen, Liying! I still miss y'all and wna know what's going on in your life! Hehe. But it seems like everyone will be busy. Awww.

When I like you,
I'll appreciate you...
When I see a good friend in you,
I'll treasure you...

2010-11-05T13:47:00.002+08:00

You're my Honeybunch, Sugerplum, Pumpy-umpy-umpkin.

Can't believe I sprained my damn leg in this long weekend. I wna atleast have some fun. Really. ): Oh, and I'm thinking whether to go for Guzheng class tmrw becus my ankle will still be wrapped. Ahhhh. My exam like in two more weeks and I'm still quite lazy to practice. Kill me. ): I should really spent atleast half-one hour practicing later. (:

Aw man, OP next Wednesday! I should also start practicing my speech. HEHE.

I'm alr missing those Babes in school now. And I think I should stop thinking so much about anything. It only just making my moods low. Should.

And guess what, my parents leaving for Indonesia in Mid-Nov. Sounds cool. Pls bring back some goodies like foooooood.

PS. Stillllll mood-less.

2010-11-02T20:36:00.002+08:00

Y'all are my cups of Tea

OP OP and more OPs. Boring maximum. I wna holiday to come as fast as they can. I don't want lectures. I don't want to step into school anymore. I just wna work my ass off. I don't know why. I wna have picnic, I wna watch movies, I wna eat pizzahut. I wna find myself some company, that companies me throughout the holidays. I'm sick and tired of being alone.

You know what. I know I'm not exactly fun to be with bcus I don't go out late till the night. I'm not that steady to start with. Like, I can't possibly just say Yes the minute y'all asked to go out. It's me. But, I just wna let you know. I'd love to spend some days with you. Because you're fun to be with. But show me, I'm that bit of importance. Hmm ):

Don't think too much. I'm just being random. Heh. Thoughts of emotional-ness. No grudges hold. HEHE. (:

Boring much. My mother still havent come out from her shower. I need to showerrrrr! I smell. ): And why is nobody entertaining me now. Boring muchiesxzxzxzxzxs! Eh, Serious. I really feel like going back to work. Atleast, I'd have something to do. And monaye rolling in. (: I still got some OP slides to amend now. MORE BORING.

Minesweeper the new hot.

2010-10-30T21:17:00.003+08:00

It takes two hands to clap.

I just wna sincerely say. I have no grudges against you. In fact, I feel very bad that I bitch about you sometimes. But I really hope it was just misunderstandings and one day if we were to talk about it. We'll all settle down and start afresh as best friends again. I thought if we were really said to be good friends. Why not open up a little to us more than just talking to others that I guess you just knew them only for a few months. Okay. It's like we are not seen to be as one anymore.

2010-10-26T21:19:00.002+08:00

Your Aurora never fails me.

It was an incredible period now. Oral presentation have totally occupied most of my time and I even sacrificed my sleep to do compilation. I'm not complaining. Everybody are having a hard time now and all I can do is to really just persevere on. After 11Nov. Everything will be over. Like everything. (:

I still could not get my presentation right. My skills are so screwed that I can't control my laughter while having my presentation. Yes, I screwed my first presentation. HEH. That was because we din really have much time to prepare. The slides weren't exactly very well-done I guess. Sigh. Second presentation was better but I'm way too dependent on scripts alr. Ahhhhh. I'm mad ROARERS leh! ): I guess being loud with no skills is nothing. Aww.

Oh. I had PT like last Monday and today. It was bad, cui max. Really. My stamina totally lousy to the max. I keep seeing bright stuffs after I ran like afew rounds. I don't like it. It's like, I din want it to happen. But I just can't help myself. Damn irritating. I hate this. ):

However, I had fun after PT though. (:

It's like, you never want it to happen.
I thought you'd at least try.
But I seriously din see it.
So, what for I try.
I quit.
Really.

2010-10-23T21:58:00.002+08:00

Laugh Nat, laugh.

Okay. It's really long since I chillz like now. I'm not doing anything. Just gossiping and having fun on Fb, Twitter and Blogggggg. You know the other day, was having fun at Sherm's house and mad. We were given one stupid Geog essay to write as punishment. HEH. I really don't know how do that stupid qns okay. Madness goodness gracious. ):

I went for first Agape match today after sooooo long. I've seen everyone. Everyone have become quite friendly. Felt so Aww. HAHA. It's like I really hope I can improve myself alottttt. I wna totally play league next year. Go Stella! Improveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! And be imba. COOLIOS. Ohoh, and poool. I also wna be imba in pool. It's like super cool. HEHE.

Pw is mad. Everything is gna like be thrown at us alr. I&R, WR, oral presentation. Great work people. -.- HOWEVER, I still thank God like totally for the pw group I have. LIKE REALLY. THANKS. (:

PS. I think I want it sweet.

2010-10-19T20:27:00.002+08:00

Pw sucks. So we're having fun!

Omg. PW is totally mad. School is also boring like mad. So we were totally having fun using Macbook. Ahhhh! I wna get one toooo! Okay. I seriously cant concentrate blogging. Nut is having fun laughing at my epic pitures on FB. Damnnnn! NUT, stop laughing. I cant see your eye anymore. HAHA!

PS. Omg, I totally cannot blog anymore. I'm laughing like mad with Nut on webcam. DAMN.

Frolick day.

2010-10-18T23:16:00.002+08:00

HAHA. This is how my hair looks. DAMN, pls don't laugh like totally!!! ): Anw, I'm quite okay with it so screw you if you laugh!!! HAHAHA. Hmm. (:

Anw, I had my first Frolick session with Natalie and gang, and the chillax'ians! It's really cool and not bad as compared to J.co. I'm really sure I'll be visiting them again and again. HAHA. (: Furthermore, they have flavoured yoghurt! Damn, I swear I'll visit them soon! (: LET'S GO AGAIN NUT! Hmm.

However!!! This is not good! I spent like $22 on food today. MAD LEH. Twenty over dollars in just one day. Can you believe it how crazy it sounds. And I'm like so freaking hell full after each meal la. Damn!!! My exam-policy like gone alr. During exam, I like eat damn little you know not!! So, I saved quite alot. But now, POOOOOF. Money gone! ):

Ahh. I'm heading to the cosy bed alr. Gna KO soon. Today's PT was mad. I died halfway. I'm truly sorry Angel I pangseh-ed you. ): Promise I'll o full pt training next time! (:

PS. You're God so lovely.

2010-10-17T20:58:00.002+08:00

Heads over Heels.

Oh, I&R is due tomorrow? I have absolutely no idea at all. Like totally. So, I really don't think I'm doing it. Ahhh. I think I'm a failed PW rep. Aww. ): But, I've did my part for WR. I don't know whether it is acceptable, but I tried. HAHAHA. We'll see how tomorrow. I really really dread having so many PW sessions you know. ): Like, I know my attention span not that long. So I'd probably not be able to sit there for long to think of one God damn idea. Sigh.

Sunday is merely boring. You know, it so boring, I din know what to blog about. But, I'm really gna like keep this very alive. HAHA! (: Oh!!! Seriously. I've been saying this for a very long time. My next baking - Oreo Cheesecake. It's damn yummy on the recipe. HAHA. I wna bake bake bake bake the cake. (: Looking forward to one free day!

Ohmy! The watch that I want from swatch is $69! I've spent my money on my hair. Now I'm totally broke. So gna start to save next month again. Damn! ):

PS. I think I quite like my hair. (:

2010-10-16T21:48:00.002+08:00

Hellow people of the world. Today is quite an awesome day. However, the thought of having weekends at home, seems to be a very boring thing to do. Haha. I really hope I'm having holiday now though. Then I'll be working my ass out and having fun at the hotel. I really do miss working. Hmm. But I think I have PW to do leh, goodness shitness gracious. ):

For the first time, I wn Monday to come. I wna crap with all the Babes. Like, we havent been sitting down at cafe as a whole and crap/laugh. Really. We're doing that at the wrong time I realise. When we're suppose to be doing that, we are all lazy to go school. But when we're suppose to be studying, we are being very crazy. HAHA. I quite miss the times when we're having fun altogether. Cus, I'm really lacking of fun. ):

I swear I'm doing something crazy tomorrow. Really. HAHA.

2010-10-15T22:10:00.002+08:00

Where's the colours of my life?

The start of PW torture is definitely not a very fun thing. There's so much to do yet so little time. Next would be the written report, then insights and reflection and oral presentation to do. We're like totally busy. -.- I hate being so busy. I wna just slack and be a stone! Oh and probably be a couch potato. HAHA

Hmm, one year is gna pass just like that. Like totally. The last time I remembered, I was working and waiting for Os results and waiting to be posted to some JCs. I was so excited about coming to JC then. Damn, I regret fucking greatly. ): Ohwell. Okay enough. Hmm, I was saying. Yea, its like now, Im waiting for my promos results and dreading to be promoted or not. Damn. ): Time really passes damn quickly. The next moment, I'll be blogging 'Hey, I'm getting married!' Lol.

PS. I sincerely love the friends around me. Although sometimes, when I really dislike him/her, I'll be damn crude towards them. But other than that, people who makes me laugh whole-hearted-ly are truly treasured and appreciated. No matter now or then.

Its a sunny yellow banana day

2010-10-14T21:15:00.004+08:00

Hello fellow people! It was June Cheng's birthday on 13 October! Young kid you see. Egoistic to the maximum. However, never fails to make me laugh and go aww at whatever he did for us. Like baking cake for the August babes. He is like really a very great friend. (: Whatever it is, we celebrated for him at Sherm's house. Coolios. It's nice having this friend.

Up next is TRAINING! Whoo. It's been damn long since I last touched my floorball stick you know. HAHA. So, it was really a good training. Although my stamina deprove alot, I still manage to enjoy myself I guess. Not to forget, our bonding session after training. And, most importantly the heart to heart talk I had with Angel. (: One day, I would really wish, I'm imba in floorball. HAHA.

I seriously dont understand why some people like to talk in a pushy way. It's damn irritating. One day, if I really cannot tahan, I think I'll slap you. -.-

Reviving

2010-10-12T19:28:00.005+08:00

Im totally reviving this blog. HAHA. And to add on to it. Promos are mad over. HAHA. I totally see sunshine. Now, all I need is to finish what I have to finish. Baking, drama'ing etc. I think I dont wna go school tomorrow leh. Like tomorrow and and the day after tomorrow. Sigh. It is totally like waste of time la. Damn.

Had much fun today with the girlfriends. All I wna say is, I enjoy having them as company. They are like the reason why I'm still clinging on to JC life. Of course, for myself too la. But, having them is like life in school. That's what I call it. HAHA. Or not, my JC life will be life-less. Okay. I'm not quite making sense. But, WHATEVER.

I will still love my livejournal though. Do check back! (:

Preferences

2009-06-13T20:11:00.002+08:00

I should just leave here & Move somewhr else.

http://purpledlove.livejournal.com/

Life may be good thr. But Im stiu v new to it. (:

Its Too Late

2009-06-06T21:28:00.003+08:00

Stella's blog is dead. Super dead.
Wonder when cn I still see the light.
Holiday meant nothing to me, its just work, work & more work.
You kno, Im super sad now.
):

Its A Brand New Day

2009-05-25T19:10:00.003+08:00

Midyrs are finally over & I shall relax for afew days before starting intensive extra lesson during the first week & last week of hols. Ugh, it doesnt even look like a holiday for us Sec4s. But! I shall not complain bcus to score well in Os, I really have to Persevere man!! HAHAHA! Straight As man. Lol, It is sooooo imposible.

Anw, Midyr results totally throw me off the buildings. I really did super badly. Failed Combine Humans & Amaths. Super sad. Though! I got A2 for Science. WAHAHA. Never been so happy for my science. Yes, I will improve agn man. Yesyes. Okk, thats the only A I got. L1R5 is like 31 leh. Although they are people out thr scoring more badly than me, But Im just unhappy w my results okk. So dont compare.!

Ohyes, Ive been eating Macs & fast food nowadays. Almost like everyday la! Im gng to broke. Seriously. Arnolds ytd & Subway today! Omg, Fatssssss! Whats more Im not dancing now leh. Sure become fat one cn. Seriously!!

Im so tired of everything right now. Just wish to stop & RELAX && Watch dramamama! Korean, here I come. HAHA!

PS. I love you

Life is full of Ups & Downs

2009-05-11T19:01:00.004+08:00

Lols, Have not been studying. Im super lazy you kno.! Mother's day ytd. Din celebrate totally. Its nt that Im a bad girl, its just, we donthave the celebration thing in our family. Yea. LOL! Yeppp!

These weekend, I had been watching this Korean Drama. Super saddistic. Thats one & it make me cry so much. Lol. Bt anws, its nice la. Hahahas. Its an old drama though, just rewatching. Ohyes, have also been playing Hell Kitchen. Super addicted cn. Sorry Rachel, I seriously dontkno how to play rock legend. Hahahas.

So, my conclusion for today is! I din study really much for my Chem. & I seriously dont feel like mugging for it leh. Hais.

I Miss you Darling. I really do. I dont like all these coldwar thing. Make me feel that you dontcare about me alr. Makes me feel so alone.

Month-sary

2009-05-01T13:45:00.005+08:00

Happy 15t Month Darling, Iloveyou always (:

Its been another month. Gna work & study hard for examinations. Bt unfortunately, Im busy watching videos & movies online. Super sad. Im so guilty now ): I have afew lessons w MrGage alr. Its alright, he thought afew tips & Im doing great. Major papers are coming up nextweek, so im super stress now. Bt agn, Im not spending time to study. Omg, Im not a good kid anymore TT

Ohyes, before I forget. I wn to say this. I really miss you & I really wna see you. See how you're doing & all that. Although we've been contacting each other quite often, I just wna see yur face okkkk! Lols, I sound like Im being homosexual. Ha! Bt anw, Dont worry. I'll pray (:

Love is Exam

2009-04-28T20:03:00.011+08:00

Its just lovely, taking photoes w people. I likeeeee. Bt all these photoes, as in most of them is lying in liying's phone for dontkno how many yrs until i discover then & decided to take all from her & upload. Yipeeeee! Im indeed a cool person. HAHHA!

Exams is tmrwwww! Goodluck friends & may God bless you all. & me ofcus.

A Lovely Great Day

2009-04-23T21:43:00.002+08:00

It is my honour to announce that my lovely Dancers had achieved a Gold w Honours this yr for our SYF. Super happy okk. Thought we really did badly on stage bt stiu its really a great effort. Love everyone till bits & pieces. Although there may be times we seniors are super pissed off by some of you all, bt we stiu manage to be friends & together, we did a wonderful job. HAHA! Abit of bullshyt la, bt Im just emotional. Im really super happy. I dontkno how to describe them in words.

Okk, so anyway. I had my lappy! Its just a second hand from my Bro. Bt atleast, I stiu get to use it in my rooooom! Dontneed to share it w my Lil bro. HAHA. Yes, my own privacy. Shall get a new one myself next time. ((:

OH, I suddenly found out that I have an old photobucket account from dontkno when. When I logged in to it, I saw many stupid photoes of myself! During sec2, sec1. Omg! Seriously, I have changed alot. HAHA, Got the prev SYF pictures too. Its a pity we din get to take group photoes this tym because everyone was super nervous & busy. LOL. Bt yes, We're all gna take a group picture in August-Thanksgiving. Ugh!

Lol, Yes. Once again! Im super happy. Thanks everyone for the hard work. Especially, MsLi, MdmEng, ZhouLaoshi, DingLaoshi && All my fellow dancers. LOVE!

Friendly Chat

2009-04-15T20:12:00.006+08:00

Whoo, I love Bones. Ok, I feel that Im crazy over Bones & I shouldnt keep talking abt it on my blog. I kept rewatching those episodes until my Mom asked me 'Why you keep watching those disgusting stuffs?' in chinese. LOL! Im sorry Kahheng, I think I dontwn to return it to you anymoreeeeee x) Hahahaha! Yes, Im rewatching the whole series agnnnn. Cheers!

Ohhh! Someone, scold me after reading the following. I have approximately 186 days till Olevels & that means i have only 31 days, which is a month to study one subject (Emath, Amath, Chem, Physics, SS, Geog) Everyone say WOW! Lols, I cant believe it. I secretly wished that I cn top the level nextyr. HAHAHA! Then everyone will be like, Omg! Its that Stella I kno! LOL! That's so pleasing to hear. ((:

Syf is next Tues. Wish the dancers luck bcus I really wna 1)Maintain our Gold or 2)Achieve Gold w Honours. I mean, I dontwna drop grade. So disgraceful. ):

PS. I wn my phone cable to upload pictures. I lost mine.

Doctor Zack Addy

2009-04-13T20:57:00.004+08:00

Omfg, I cant believe Im googling abt Zack from Bones. He's superrrrr cute okkkk! Im marrying him! Oops. Whatever. He is all it takes to be a genius. He's smart & everyone looooves him. Ahhhh! Pls come back & work w yur squint friends. I miss you mannn. God, Im really sick. Ehhh, bt he old lehhh. 35 this yr. LOL!

Life

2009-04-12T13:51:00.003+08:00

Oh, since Im updating. I should update a proper post now. Life's boring. Full of dance practices & works. Band & Drama had went for their SYF. & mine's 21st. Actually, I would rather for it to end soon. So that I cn really settle myself down & study. I mean it. Im lacking of time for work. Have been sleeping early these days. Super tired okk.

I finished Bones till half of season4. Im stiu in love w it. Bt I really hope Zack cn go back to work w them. Aww~

Anw, Bb got his new phone. HAHAHA! I seriously hope I cn get one sooner, nt till September. Its way tooo long. Bt, trust me. Im getting that Love of mine. SE T707, here I comeeeeee. (: Oh, the phone is actually nt out yet. Coming out soon. LOL.

I feel scared. As in, yes. Scared & wish what I fear wouldnt happen.

New Love

2009-04-12T13:46:00.004+08:00

LOL, forget abt all the other phones! I just found my new love. IT SO RESEMBLANCE to the phone Im using now. OMG~ Fuck. I love it to bits & pieces. Ahhhhh! Love, Im gna get you soon (:

SonyEricsson T707. Dont you dare steal my love. God.

Superb

2009-03-13T19:39:00.003+08:00

Hello peeps. Hasn't been blogging much due to homeworks, my brother owning th stupid comp, & BONES. Okk, I've been Bone-crazy since dontkno when, start of this yr I guess. Its so late too say it now. Bt anw, Im at Season3 now. Hohoho. Nice!

Ohyes, beside Bones, I've been super stress up by schl. Like, Dance, Remedials, Schl work, Test or maybe Failed tests. Ughhh. The onely test that I've been doing well is just Amath! God, I dontkno what is wrong w me. Super stress okk. I wrote so much for my Geog essay, & I stiu failed. Superrrrr piss off. & ofcus, the cancelling of Artsnight, & Syf & thinking of whether to perform during ThanksGiving. Its taking up so much space in my mind & Im left w no space to put all my academic. So, conclusion is, Im sooooo stressss now! Just like Karen.

Before I forget anything, GOODLUCK GB GIRLS~ GOLD!!

Yah, hope they'll see this when they come back from their competition ((: Ofcus, goodluck for all the aesthetic groups for the upcoming Syf~ I kno its superrrr stress, bt we have to persevere ):

PS. I just needed yur shoulder to lie on, seeing you make me feel relax at least. So pls, dont stress me w those unwanted stuffs alr. I just wn yur shoulder, just for me to lie on it, just to make me more comfortable after the day's work. Plss..

Enjoy

2009-03-01T13:48:00.002+08:00

Happy 13th Month Bb~

Another month had past & Feb ends. Its really fast. Maybe the next moment, I'll be sitting in the hall doing my Os. & after that I'll be receiving my results & dread what I desires. Anw, in case you people din know, I dropped Lit. Yes, dropped. Like wont be attending Lit lessons anymore. Atfirst I thought I'll regret, Bt great! Im stiu hanging on ((:

Attended my first tuition of my whole education life today. Its at Marine Parade & thr's homework given. Its the same as what Mdm Eng gave us for homework. Essay! Somemore its those Argumentative essay kind. Like, we need to do lots of research kind. Ugh. I hate doing Influences on country. -.-

Ohyes, thr will be dance camp during March Hols. Haha, we seniors are doing all th planning & I think it was fun. I like to plan for camps. Hahahahah! So, Look forward to it Juniors. I love y'all. (:

Love You Bb, its been 13months. 13 is really unlucky, bt we're doing great~

Beyond all wonders

2009-02-21T20:59:00.004+08:00

Life's really busy nowadays. Homeworks, Revision, Dance Practice, Breakthrough Camps & Sec3 Camps. Have been gng late bcus of those camps & thus Im really lacking of sleep now. Serious! How I wish I can just stay at home & Sleeeeeeeep. Gna just blog abt those memorable days, So it will be wordy & maybe afew photoes from facebook.

14Feb-
Its Valentines Day. Went to meet Bb & he bought a cake to celebrate Belated Annie & Vday. Haha, How sweet. Its chocolate flavour & I really like it. Thanks Bb, I kno you think that chocolate is heaty bt stiu, for the sake of me, bought it. ((: So we ate 3/4 of th cake & was too full to finish it up. So .. we dump it. TT Bt stiu, We enjoy eating yes? Haha. We went eat arnolds too. Ofcus, Its after afew hours after we at the cake. Its nice & its my first time eating too. Bb, although in between we had afew unhappiness. Bt I stiu enjoyed my day. Loveyou.

16-17Feb-
BreakThru Camp! Whoo, its fun yet tiring. Blue house rockkkkks! It consist of Faith4-4 & some of Faith 4-2. Thought, it will be super nt enthu bt it turns out the other wayt round. Whoo, Thanks to all FGLs. Really, they're so hyper & fun. Anw, was in the same house as Bb, so Im nt so lonely after all. (: Enjoy both days & wish they'll be more such workshop. Hahahaha.

18-19Feb-
These two days are really special. We had 3periods free on Wed & 5periods free on Thurs. Whoo. Was it fun or fun? I mean, I should really have positive thoughts & to study harder after the camp. How cn I rejoice when my tchrs nt coming?! Bt stiu, since we have these periods free, just have fun! Lols. Cooool. Anw, was just idleling in class & I slept. Like, really slept. Snore, that kind of slp. LOL. Just to regain my sleepness.

Anw, thr's afew stupid photoes w me in. Bt I was so oddddd. Like, Im nt suppose to be in th picture. Its just look wrong. See what I mean -.-!!!

Just in case you din notice. Im the one asleep at the 4th desk from the window (:

Lastly, I love my boyfriend!

When the good times come to an end

2009-02-07T19:24:00.002+08:00

Life's too boring nowadays, so din get too blog. Overall for this week, remedials everyday. & my ezlink card is damage. Thus, I went to PasirRis to get a new one for like $9. Which is good. I thought it will be like fucking ex that kind. Ha! Ohyes, had been going solo this few days. Bb was having loads of matches & me, dance. Din get to be w him for so long till today. I really miss him.

Yes. However, I stiu wna tell him something. These few days Ive been trying hard to change my tolerance, change my attitude, change my anything. Just also nt to quarrel w you over small matters. So, I really wn you to notice all these & also try to be more caring to me? Its just, I dont wna to make myself do something for you, bt I get nothing from you. Just, understand me will you?

A happy yet sad day..

2009-02-01T19:26:00.003+08:00

Today its the 1st of Feb. Hahahas, look at the time that past. So fast yet so slow. Bt however, today its a memorable day!

Happy 1st yr Anniversary Bb! Although we din get to celebrate it, bt I guess you're happy about it? I didnt blame you for anything, just Im stiu sad. Im real sad. Real effing sad. I kno it wasn't fully yur fault, bt however, atleast you cn still say a word of apology to me. To show that you really care about the whole celebration thing. Just let me kno, you're sorry that we din get to celebrate. I kno it wasnt yur fault, thats why Im not even angry, never even give you a cold shoulder, bt atleast, tell me you're sorry. If, Im the last time me, it wont turn out this way.

Just cameback from Karen's house. Thanks her for the steamboat & I had a really fun tym thr although my boyf fly me aeroplane. Really Thanks for all the funness. ((: Loves.

Im sorry we din get to do anything today. Bt, I'll stiu love you Bb. ):

Its the new thing

2009-01-27T19:50:00.002+08:00

Happy CNY everyone! Receive many Angpows, bt however stiu getting lesser each yr. Hoho, My Brother promised to buy a new Psp Memory card for me, which is good. Now I cn watch videos in my Loveeee Psp. Hahahaha! Great.

Oh, & how greattttt cn my CNY be, early in th morning, I found out that my lovely Hp charger was goneeeee. Like spoilt ): To add on w it, My Pinkyyyy phone had seriously lowww batt now. Ughhh, I have to get a new charger soon or not, I have no Hp to use anymore. &&& to add on w it agn, my stupid Hp cable was gone for good too. Like really gone, I cant find it anymore. Cant upload photoes, songs, or even charge my Pinky phone. Is it great or is it fabulous? )):

Steamboats is nicee, superb & dontkno how to explain. Hoever, our family dont gamble. They are like so civilised & all they do is just play w young children & drink & talk. They always talk abt work, shares all these. We teenagers cant even communicate w them. So no gambling. How sad. & Bb is happily playing Mj w his relatives. Lols.

Schl's starting tmrw. How exciting! -.- Came to think of it, Midyr is in 4months time. Jy everyone! Im being v sarcastic here (:

Imissyou Dearie.

Its not over yet

2009-01-24T18:31:00.002+08:00

Cny celebration in schl ytd & off we went to Ps. Watched Love Matters w Dearie & the conclusion is, its superb nice + funny. Cn laugh till pengs. ((:
I love you Honey.

Its A Long Journey

2009-01-22T20:14:00.003+08:00

Cant believe cny will be like 4 more days! I mean, its always in February. Bt anw, I stiu like cny cus money will be rolling in & also STEAMBOAT! I always loooove steamboats. Seriously, its just so nice to have family gathering round th table eating steamboat. Th soup is sweet, food are delicious! (((: Omg, Im getting hungry now.

Ohoh, thr's alot of nice movies coming up & I really love to watch these:

InkHeart

The Wedding Game

Love Matters

Hahas, Yesss! I would like to watch these. Hope Bb will be generous enough & spent money watching these 3 w me! ((: I'd love you honey.

A moment of truth

2009-01-17T11:23:00.006+08:00

Hello people. Seriously, nowadays thr's like nothing special to blog abt. & My blog is dead, almost a month & noone ever tag. Even those daily tagger last tym, dont tag often alr. Lols, I kno people will just read & leave & what's more, I din even blog everyday. No pictures, no interesting facts. Cn say my blog is a little boringgggg. ):

Whatever, I just seriously dontkno what I cn blog about. However, thr's one thing, Happy Birthday Karen. Youre 16 alr. Hahahs, are you happy that youre of th same age as me? Lols, Its good to be 16 okk. Cn watch NC16 movies. Hahaha! (: Hope you have fruitful birthday & I'll miss you during Hcl lesson okk? Yes, that will be right.

Ohyes, Suddenly had a crave to play Audition leh. Its been almost half a yr since I played that & I must have deprove alot. So now, Im trying to download Audi & see whether I cn install it. Haha! Yes. & im also bored at home so Audi may let me make use of my tym. Ohmy, Look at me. Instead of studying & mugging for Olevels which is like, I dontkno, 8-9 months away, Im here thinking of playing Audition!

Hais, I want to study, bt I just dontkno whr to start. Midyr will be one on May, Prelims & Os. I dont even kno I cn make it. Syf, Artsnight, Remedials & Baby. Cn I cope? Worst stiu, Looking at Bb & me, we may have lots more quarrel in th future? I hope we cn just take quarrel out of our lives & just focus on our studies. & ofcua, Slacking tym out of Bb's life & he cn also concentrate on his studies more. (:

Alright, Audi is 5o% now. Great! Lols.

Im still here

2009-01-12T20:34:00.004+08:00

Could it be words of anger? Maybe.
Bt Im still here.
If you need me, come back to me.
Cus I kno our lives will be better w each other around. Dont you agree?
It kills me to see you nt looking my way.
& it hurts me to hear that you wn me to disappear.
It might be words of anger,
Bt all I cn say now is, Im still here. Not changing.

I still need you

Finally, Its all over

2009-01-08T20:11:00.004+08:00

Hahahahas, Headstarts all over & finally I wont need to study till late nights, eating into my beauty sleep. (: Nowadays had been so tired, & I fell asleep today after test. Seriously la, got dream somemore leh. Tsktsk. Bt anw, its all overrrr! Hahas (; Remedials starting nextweek & probably, thr's no chance of skipping any lesson. ):

Ohyes, had been gng late to dance practices like at 4plus5. I mean, I seriously dontwn doo those basics cn, will ache leh! So, dont say Im lazy. I just dontwn to ache badly th nextday. && You kno what, Ive been really paying good attention in class this week, din fell asleep & whatsoever. Im a good girl. & Chinese Olevel marks is releasing next monday? Im gna dread for my results, I really hope I'll get an A, or not, say Bye to Hcl. TT

Thr goes, our 2nd quarrel of the newyr. Im sorry that I threw tantrum at you. Bt you should understand me.

I will Be Ok

2009-01-04T10:44:00.001+08:00

I'll just be Ok & get on w my life. Im just damn emo th other day (:

New Year

2009-01-01T00:08:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year! &&
Happy 11th Month Anniversary Dearrrrie (:

I kno youre lonely at home, & I kno no matter how I an wei, you also wont be happy & wont appreciate it (x Bt stiu, Dont be sad, Im always free to pei you. Hahahahaha! Love you alot, we'll have a good yr ahead w less quarrels & cold wars, bt more happiness (: In the new yr, I also hope we cn study hard together & graduate together. Hahahahs, Muacks Bb~

Stella misses My Dear Lewis

2008-12-29T20:21:00.002+08:00

Lols, Hello! I went to dance today, Its so fucking tiring cn, almost die thr & somemore I have this big Blueblack on my knee. I like kneel on that part alot tyms, so its God Damn big & Superrrrr pain. Cries, I cant even kneel on th bed cn. It hurts TT

Went find Bb after dance & it was sort of worth it. I realise he actually thought abt me, Im so happy! (: I kno last tym, I used to think that he doesnt care whether how bored am I when I go find him at his friend's hse. I admit Im bored, bt seeing him happily playing mj w his friends, Im happy too. Atleast he lets me play one round x)) Hahas, so Anw, Yes. He really cares. I feel so blessed. Loveyou~

3more days..

2008-12-28T21:17:00.002+08:00

Tag Replies: (though its not alot, Im lazy to reply in tagboard)

Pc: Lols, Imy too!
Rachel: Lols, Im back alr, & we've chatted. Lols, Schl starting. Gna see you soon. Missyou!! & yes, youre retarded, tagged w my name. x))
Jodi: Yupp (:
Crystal: Updated! Hahah.

Misses

2008-12-26T23:37:00.003+08:00

Hello People from Singapore! Im back, Lol. Actually, Im back on 23rd, just I went working 3days in a row, so was not able to update. (: Hais, schl's starting nextweek & my homework is stiu not fully done yet. I think Im gna just leave all of them aside & dieeeeeee~ Lols! Actually, Im really looking forward to schl reopen, atleast I cn finally get to meet my friends agn. ((:

However, schl reopen means HeadStart Test is coming up & SYF is coming up. Also, Os! Wait, I stiu have to dread for Chinese Os marks. I scared I din manage to get an A & have to drop to Normal Chinese. Not that I love Hcl alot, bt I just dontwna waste my 3yrs of studying Hcl. Yepp. Hahah! Ohyes, I really dont feel like gng dance la! Im gna ache alot ):

Newyr's coming! Which means, our 11th Month Anni is nearing, Hoho! Iloveyou Honey!

Im all Yours

2008-11-27T18:56:00.002+08:00

Hey people, gna fly in 2days tym, so pls miss me & leave me a tag. Lols! Especially Bb! I'll really miss you until I die. A month Im gng & will be back on 23rdDec. Yes, &after 6days of working, I only earned like $190++. Thats fucking LITTLE. I wonder when cn I like find another better job. Ahh, bt anw, will be having Os nextyr & will nt be working perhaps. Ha!

Ooh, I reborneded my hair! Its straight & totally flat! Lol, yes. & its Loooooong~ Haha (: I like long hairs.

Sigh, I really seriously dontlike to quarrel w Bb anymore. I mean, maybe I really suck at controlling my temper bt, Im really v upset at some things he did. I just wna make myself happy & ofcus, Bb to be happy. Instead, the whole thing is just screwed. Anw, will nt be here for our 11th Month Anni, so I'll just say it in advance. Happy 11th Month Anni Bb! I loveyou! I'll come back as soon as I cn & will really miss you when Im thr (:

My Life's Boringgggg Now

2008-11-15T20:46:00.002+08:00

People! Was trying v hard to play my maple acc, Bt guess what! Its omfg HARD to train lah. Ugh, talk about it makes me feel retarded. Seriously, I kno its lame to play maple agn. Bt Hahah! Who cares. Oh anw, Bb said he will give me Mp pot & mesos! Hahaha, tyty! (: Gna work tmrw, I guess I'll only work one day & wait for the other job's call. Pray hard I cn get the job.

Was browsing the nokia phones, & there's this new SuperNova phone out. Like, seriously copycats la, I stiu prefer the 7610 one. Haha! Next, sudden urge to get an iPod Touch, I dontkno why, Its just so cool. Gna get one if I cn. & next, I had alr get it all planned for my after Secondary schl's education. If I happen to get into JC, I'll study hard & become a successful gynaeologist. Bt, If Im really that suck, bt to go Poly, I'll take up nursing course for Midwifery. I kno it sounds weird, bt its those kind of nurse who takecare of babies (: Anw, yes. Im a foreigner, so schl fees are high, so my mother kept psychoing me to be a tchr when I grow up cus its a govt job & that govt may allow me to be PR. Bt hellllo, thr's so many people out thr, who happen to be of the same age as me gets to be PR, why not me? Seriously! My mom also says she wont force me, bt she's psychoing me! Wtf. Dont ask me why, bt I really do wn to take up nursing. Ugh, idiots~

Sorry for those whinings, gna go play maple alr. Byeeee~

Long Days

2008-11-14T17:19:00.001+08:00

Hello friends, really bored at home. So started playing my neglected maple. Seriously, speaking of work. I cn get really pissed off, until now I still havent start working yet. It totally sucks big time, waste my fucking time at home waiting for yur calls, I'd rather go find another job that's much better than this. -.-

Ohyes, Ten Brothers. Omgggg, Its fucking nice. Watch it! I finished watching the whole series. (((: Nice x10! How I wish, there will be longer episodes rather than 20. Its really nice though. Haha.

The zhuhai people had flown to china today, gna miss xinyu. (I kno she cant see this) But, she's like gna miss alot of dance practices & its really irritating you kno? Like, people in syf missing dance practices, we cant get on. Bt anw, still, its zhuhai. (: && Im gna fly back to indo at the end of this month too, gna miss like 4dance practices too. HAHA! Whatever, Im sorry, I cant help it too.

Gna end here, really nothing to post about. Loveyou~

We are Starting Afresh

2008-11-04T18:45:00.002+08:00

Hellos, I din really like the PEC camp since we are nt the one playing it instead, we are like planning it. Only like the part whr we eat snacks, gossips, sneaking to the canteen to get bread at night. I mean, I really do look forward to the camp, bt the whole thing just shouldnt end the way I wanted it to be. Some juniors are really.. Lol? Bt some, I really cant stand them. Their attitudes towards seniors, nt taking initiative & all those. Bt stiu, Thr are some nice juniors too (:

Anw, Happy 9th Month Anni Dearie. Though both of us forgot, bt we still manage to get ourselves cakes. Haha, Loves.

Today will be th last week for remedials, happy cus I seriously dontnid to yawn in class anymore. Im sad cus, from next week onwards, I'll have to be punctual for dance practice. I dread it. I'd still prefer gng in late (: However, I will stiu prefer nt to go for remedials though, work will be starting on Sunday. Money's rolling back, Yaynesss. Chinese Olevel tmrw, wish me luck. I really dontwn to drop Hcl. I've been studying for 3yrs, now tell me drop to normal chinese, how? Jy mans.

Lastly, homeworks are nightmares. Gna start as soon as possible.

Dedicated to you, LewisOng

2008-10-27T17:50:00.003+08:00

I just, dontwn us to keep quarreling okk. We had been quarreling non-stop since last month? I alr have nothing to say abt all our quarrels, just Im just willing to change now. Like, maybe both of us cn change, so this r/s will last long. I kno sometyms, I really demand alot from you. & whatever problems I have, you din even complain & wn me to change. Whenever we quarrel, we'll sometyms talk on phone & resolve things, I remembered everything you said. Everything bad about me, Im really aware of it. Im sorry, Im willing to try & change now okk, just like what I said in my prev post. Bt, first thing first, I wn us to just end our current quarrel peacefully & happily. Alot of tyms I initiated breakup, is bcus I really cant tolerate those quarrels any longer, If quarreling is the only thing we do, then why dont we just let go of each other. Thats what I think. & lastly, I meant everything I said in the prev post, the one I said that I wont attitude you. Yes, it may sound hard to me as Ive been trying so many times & I failed to do so. I hope you'll understand & at the same time, I really will try all means to tolerate everything & nt to give you attitude. Bcus I really love you. If this is our challenge to happiness, I hope we cn both pass the challenge w flying colours. Cus I kno, thats what you wn too right? To last? Yea, we'll make it. Hope you wont forget this again (:

When There Is Noone Here

2008-10-26T13:46:00.004+08:00

Alright, since Im using comp now, I shall update a long post. I'll try to update a long one. Ha! Yes, holidays are finally here, however, we stiu need to go back to schl for remedial lessons & CCAs. Ohyes, another thing, Im like active in Pec alr. So, Holidays will be quite busy w archery lessons, pec meeting, camp & other events. & lastly, work. Ive made up my mind, from the start of remedials & nextyr, I'll really study hard for exams & stuffs. Cus, Ive learnt my lesson; failed test may pull down overall marks, so dont look down on test (: As for Dance, I'll try to be punctual whenever possible & be really active. Lols, this is like my newyr resolution, which I'll really try my best to achieve.

Im stiu back working at PP, bt this tym round, I only work 4days perweek. That made 12 working days during Nov. Will be gng back to Indo on 29Nov, miss me anyone? Ha, money from work is precious alright. Had alr planned on what to do w it. Newyr's clothes, Storybks, reborning of hair. All these cn cost me like 200bucks okk. So, Im gna work hard. (:

Next, I kno Ive alr promised Bb that I'll nt attitude you anymore. Th only thing is, I really cant tolerate when you always wn me to do things alone while youre having fun w yur friends. Maybe you dont feel this way, Bt I really feel neglected. Nevertheless, I'll stiu try. I've thought abt it ytd night & maybe today, I will be what you wn me to be. Maybe you'll think that it will only be awhile, after awhile, everything change back to its original. Bt, Im gna try & tolerate. & I believe one day, both of us will be happy & wish that all our quarrels will come to an end. Trust me, no matter how hard is it for me to change, I'll try. I kno that if I really love you, I'll sacrifice & always be yur good & understanding girlf. & Ofcus, I'll also appreciate that if you could promise me that you'll try together w me. Iloveyou Lewis.

Shall end here then, long post? Forgive me for this wordy post. (: Gdbye.

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧地把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里你不用害怕失眠
如果你想忘记我也能失忆

能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪
让它留在雨天
越过你划的线我定了勇气　的终点

Depression Mood

2008-10-25T11:25:00.002+08:00

Went to take back result slip today. Just as I expected, my Test result pulled my Combine Humans down. So overall, I failed 1sub. The good thing is, my Bro din con my Psp. Haha! My love, here I come. Anw, my percentage is 63.9. Thats like better than midyr by alot. Seriously, I really improve, so Im gna keep it up. (((:

Stupid, Baby just prank me. Wtf, make me cry for nothing. Zz, aiyah, as long as he din drop, I'll be satisfied. & also nextyr, we'll study hard together & graduate together. Haha, thats good. I love you Baby. (:

Stranger

2008-10-14T20:07:00.003+08:00

Finally, exams over & exam scripts are given back to us today. I mean, seriously, Im very satisfied w my results. Really, not to boast, bt Im really fucking satisfied w my results. I pass all my subjects, fucking all! A) Its my first time having all subjects past and B) Thr's a possibility that my Darling Psp wont be confiscated. Yay!

One thing, I seriously hate is that, although my 1st paper for Lit pull my overall for Lit passs, bt MrTeo still fail my 2nd paper by 1/2 mark. Frigging 1/2 mark to past, really lah! He always fail my Lit test by 1/2 mark, always leh. Thats why I've been so pissed offff. Ohwells, I still pass everything, Thank Goddddd (:

I'll Stand by you

2008-10-01T19:11:00.004+08:00

Omgooooodnesss, its been long since I update, really long lah. One month leh! Lols, wtf! Exams just half ended. Major exams like Social studies, Geog, A-maths all gone. *Poooof :D Guess whats the date today? 1stOctober. Children's day, Miss those times when Im still children, got lots of presents from teachers alright. Haha! Damn retarded, then still got celebrations in the school hall. Haha~

Bt, thats not the point. ;D Today its Baby's & me 8th month Anniversary! Happy Anni Dearrie. Miss you alot now ((:

Ohyes, I finished watching Fated to Love, Hahah! So cute lah the ending. Imagine one day I also pregnant in some village, then no hospital or ambulance. Dontkno Baby can save me not? Haha, Lols, retarded. Shall end here, Goodbyeeeeeee (:

Tonight will be the night that I will Fall For You,
Over again,
Dont make me change my mind.
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear its true.
Because a Boy like you is impossible to find,
You're impossible to find :D

Im a Goner

2008-09-06T21:26:00.002+08:00

Just let me be alone & die, so you wont have to think of me again.

We'll never be able to make it anymore,
No matter how I think of you,
No matter how I put you first from everything,
all I get is broken hearts.

2008-09-05T20:59:00.000+08:00

Dearie, Iloveyou

Phew, I'd finish writing notes for Chem, Phy & Geog. Will be starting on SocialStudies for the next few days. I kno by writing notes, for some people, there will be no help at all. But for me, I think its easier memorising that way. Ofcus, I will still readup before exams. That should do. Ha! Ohyes, I must also start reading Lit books. Lols

Holidays is coming to an end soon, seriously. Having Psp at home, make me feel like staying at home everyday just to play x)) Will be attending a concert tmrw at Victoria. Xinyu's dancing onstage, wish her good luck. I kno she can do well. (: & I quite like Derrick Ho's new song leh, I tried uploading, but I just keep on failing. So JUNIEEE, if you see this, pls kindly put some of his songs into yur phone & send them to me. Lols, yesyes.

Love Does not Exist..

2008-09-01T18:31:00.005+08:00

I kno I hasnt been updating since a long long time. Its holidays now, gna stay home & mug for
the coming exams. Pray hard. Oh, we got back our test results. Quite happy w my results though. I failed 1sub only, which is good ((: So, now I really have to mug hard on my combine humans & ofcus Lit.

Ohyes, before I forget. Thanks for all the wishes on my birthday (: Specially thanks those who stay up latelate at night & wish on the dot. & ofcus, the lovely treat from Sakae. Thanks, I kno its soooo long to say all these now, everyone would have forgotten. Ha, whatever. I got my havainas you kno, Lols! && my long-waited Psp!! Really have to thanks my Brother for that. One thing Im sad about the psp, He forbids me to bring it to school for dontkno what reasons. -.-

I'll always love you even though I said I dont. Even though I broke our promise, I'll still regret & feel that I've done you wrong. Bt, no matter how wrong am I, how could you treat me this way? I kno its all over now, bt have you ever thought? That few days was the worst days of my life, I've noone to talk to, Im just crying & crying alone at home. Both of us are at fault, I'd tried to makeup for it & change for you. Just, pls forgive me...

PS. Happy 7th month Anniversary. I love you alot~

Watch it burn, Let it die

2008-08-23T12:53:00.003+08:00

Hello, End of Yr is like a month away only. Im gna start to mug hard. Actually, for the sake of the psp! I mean, I kno Im abit late to yearn for a psp. My Brother had finally agreed on buying one for me on my birthday. He told me I have to study hard, no fails. Ahh, whatever. For the sake of that psp, Im trying my best okk. Mugggg~

So, seriously. Chemistry is not that hard right? I kno I can pass it alright, just I have to be more alert in class. I studied for my retest & I manage to answer everything confidently. As for physics, just memorise those formulas & stuffs right? && to pay attention in class or whatever. I kno I have to. Ahhhh, talking about all these stuffs. Im finally seeing the light. -.-

Get that Fuckass out of my life.

2008-08-17T20:03:00.002+08:00

The pecs finally returned from Obs. How cool was it? Been reading posts after posts about what I'd missed. Seriously, Everyone seems happy & wanting to go back again. After reading their post, how I wish I can be there crying w everyone else & carrying those heavy trekking bags. How I wish I will get muscle aches after kayaking. But all these, I din get to enjoy. ):

Next, I dont understand why. Why must you stop calling just bcus you think we'd quarrel on the phone. You've changed, from the last time I kno you. You've changed greatly. You used to call me whenever you have th time. You use to meet me up whenever Im out. Now? You dont even willing to chat w me over the phone. Wont even willing to fetch me here & there. How I wish, all these never started, perhaps you'll be spending more time w me like this.

Never felt so lonely in my life..

2008-08-11T12:05:00.006+08:00

Ugh, pecs went for OBS today. Wtfxfxfxfx! Im in my depression mood tday. Seriously, my worst day ever, Rax & Karen went for their camps too. So im like so left alone in class apart from Pling. Imagine I donthave her! Omg, I'd rather skip school for the whole week. Lit class, no Liying, no Junie, no Huiqing. My life is so so fun indeed. Omg, really feel like crying now. Depression~

Anw, went for ndp celebration on 9thAugust. Funny, Im not even a Singaporean & I went. Conclusion is, only the water fountain display & the fireworks are nice. The dances are cool though I cant see them quite properly. Ohyesss, another thing, the plane display is nice too, especially the designs they made out of the steam in the air. It was really crowded after ndp, people were towering cityhall mrt, bt fortunately, Im gng home by car. Stiu, traffic jams are devils.

PS. Ive never ever felt so lonely before. Athome, you kno nobody will talk to me other than you & crystal. Crystal has her own life, her boyf to accompany. How abt you? Youre always w yur friends, out w them, enjoying yur life w them. Do you ever care whats happening to me at home? I kno you stiu care by smsing & all. Bt, what I really wn, do you kno? I feel so lonely at home, only Harry Potter to accompany me w. Hes not my boyf mind you, I need you alright. I need you to accompany me alright. You told me to change my attitude, I tried. Perhaps, these few days, I din actually attitude you or anything. & if I dont, you just dont bother to call. You said you'd try, bt Ive never seen it. You said we'll change together. Bt, I just got the feeling that Im the only one changing. You just take it that when Im changing, I'll tolerate everything. I tell you I cant. What I need & what I want, you just dont seem to understand at all...

On my way home...

2008-08-03T15:35:00.004+08:00

What the fuck! Its all screwed up, totally disgusted by my computer now. I was using WindowsVista for dontkno how longgggg alr, & now my darn brother reformatted everything, changed the cpu & now my comp was back to WindowsXP. Not that I dislike WindowsXP that much, bt the fact that now, my acc was not the admin acc, so we cant install anything! Zz, like even msnplus. Now im using WINDOWS MESSENGER! Ughhh, fuckfuckfuck! So now, I detest using the stupid comp now. -.-
I cant even play anything now. Suckkkkk~ Last post till my mood's back someday.
Atleast, one think Im happy at. Happy Belated 6th Month Anni. We went Bugis (abit stupid for an anniversary date) to get ourselves a couple ring, like finally. Its in silvery black colour & it rotates. It takes 3days to engrave words so Dear's gna get it tmrw. Anw, headed to Ajiesn for our lunch, we hasnt ate that for quite a long time. Feel like eating pizzahut someday. Lols~ Nice day perhaps. Thanks for everthing Dearie.
Had Thanksgiving ytd. It was okk after everything bt we're not allowed to watch th rest of the performance. Anw, its boring. Met Dear afterwards & thats all for the day.

Will it be good if Im gone

2008-07-26T10:25:00.002+08:00

Hasnt got any time to update blog this week as Im busy rereading HarryPotter & was damn sleepy even its 9only. I suddenly feel that school was boring. I feel stupidly odd everytime Im in class. Ahhh, this world sucks man. How I wish I should just drop class to Dearie's class, atleast I have him as my company.

Stiu got SS project need done. Its due two weeks later. How boring searching for stuffs from northern Ireland. Uhh, My hands are super oily now, was eating laksa justnw for breakfast. Bt I seriously wash it alr cn. -.- Gna be quite busy next week. Superrrr lah. Monday - Dance, Tuesday - Remedial, Wednesday - Thanksgiving Rehearsal, Thursday - Dance again, Friday - Anniversary w Dearie! Bt will be gng a dance preformance at Esplanade at night, which is compulsory? Lols. Saturday - Thanksgiving &&& GUZHENG! Omg, After so long, I finally got to go for Guzheng Practice. My tchr had been sick for months & now, he cn come back to teach. Im soooo excited now. Omg!

Dearie, IMISSYOU~

For the rest of my days, in so many ways, You make me real

2008-07-20T19:51:00.003+08:00

Another day had past, Ive been wondering, what will happen tmrw whe I give Dear his pressie. The look on his face. Oh so surprise. He really knows everything cn. So a word to myself is that, Dont ever meet him after buying his stuffs. Anw, There's geog tmrw. Din do a single shyt of her homework. Really dont understand, why must she give us so many shyts to do when she knows we wont do it? Lol, ah who cares anw.

Im so into old songs nowadays. I listened to Westlifes & all their old songs. & Kelly Clarkson. I rmbr a period when I was crazy abt her song Because Of You. & Now, Im stiu not bored of it. Its nice, I dontkno why. Westlifes' songs are great too, Maybe to you, they dont. Bt I LOOOOVE IT. ((: Oh, Sadly, Im thinking of another rebonding of hair agn. Ah, I never get tired of it. I mean, Its just my hair. Long so what, It doesnt stay straight. I dontlike. So I dont like it whenever I go out w my hair down. Irritating. So, yes. I wn another rebonding. LOLS, perhaps a professional one next time.

I cut all my nails alr. So my cute nails are like jelly beans now. Seriously, Smalllllll~ Its only like 6mm short. How cuteeeeee x))))

PS, Dance tmrw is compulsory. So I cant get to celebrate Dearie's bday. Im so sad. Bt yea, I had no choice. Im Sorry Honey. (:

Dont make me Cry

2008-07-16T20:05:00.005+08:00

Love Baby! Yea, so nice rightttttt? Dear & me are loved okkkks. Lols, although we had a little quarrell today, bt we never fail to make up after afew hours. Yes, thats us. Wna tell you this, no matter how angry Im to you & what words I used during the quarrells, I really dont mean it. Its just some words of anger. I always regret what I said, bt was too proud to admit wrong. Im sorry. You kno I love you more than anything else, even sacrificing my time w my friends. & I do wn to spent all of my time w you. Loveyou! Anw, Thanks Dear for the oldchangkee today. Its been long since I last ate that. 5more days till Dear's bday. Hope we'll have a good time together. Hahahahah~

Schl was okk today. Had physics & I paid much attention to it. Lols, Bt I really admit our class was no better than f3-4. Ha! Oh, We had 3hours of Leadership training today. It turn out quite okk. Just only for the fact that Im the only f3-2 pupil there. So I had to join 3-3 for most of the activities.

Will be having Thanksgiving rehearsal tmrw. Nothing much to blog abt today. So shall end here. I miss you alr Dearie. ((((:

2008-07-14T20:43:00.002+08:00

Okk, So this is like my only picture w Ain on the day of Cycling. I really wanted to take many many photoes w HuiQing & co bt just, I dontkno why. Lols! Yes, we cycled & cycled. Arnd like 5hours & my butt was like hurting like assss & My knesscaps are in pain too. Damn sad lah. Bt after cycling for 5hours, came back to the bicycle shop, the boys are so nice to help me keep the bike. HAHA! Thankyou, I kno I loook damn messy & sweaty that time. Lols! Slept quite early while everyone was having fun in the night. I din mean to miss out the fun Im just toooo tired. Like Hellllo, Im not suppose to be like that, Im suppose to be a girly girl. LOLOLOLS! Ahh, shut the crap Stella. x)))

Had schl today, was so lazy to wakeup. How I wish I cn be sick (((: Oh, & I dontkno why Im happy today. Hahah, when I reach home, I really have the urge to say ILOVEYOU to mummy when I saw her in the dining. Lols, Dont ask me why. & I realised I never had said that three words to any of my family members. Retarded? Hais, I guess noone does that.

Will be having Olevel Chinese Listening tmrw. Dont understand why we have to do it after schl. It will be so nice to be during schl hours. Yesyes. Oh, Im trying v hard to save money for I dontkno what reasons. Lols, Dear's Birthday is next week. I bet he doesnt look forward to it, wanted to give him surprises, bt he just knows everything, Ughhhh~

Youre My Paradise

2008-07-10T21:06:00.003+08:00

Wasnt great today. We had the most boring PE lesson of all, Haha! It was doing all those traditional games. Bt the last game we played was quite fun though. Hmm, & now im feeling quite tired alr. I dontkno why, My eyes are like dropping slowly. Oh & guess what? HuangDaMa is stiu chasing us for our holiday homework! Hahas, Thats right. I thought she wont be chasing for it anymore so I stopped doing. Like wth! She suddenly talked abt it & I was like Omg! I havent completed all yet. Damn!

My elder brother went Taiwan for his business trip. Ugh, & yet I wasnt allowed to go for OBS. &&& The day of their departure was a schl holiday. So I cant get to see any of them. Ahhh, Im sad alr. Lets just stop talking abt it anymore. & not infront of my face ofcus.

I got my Milkbottle! Thanks Karen despite having me reminding you every morning. Anw, Its smallllll~ Lols, Love.

PS; Im really Sorry nowadays for what Ive done, What Ive said. I understand that you dont like the way Im, like how I dont think before I act. In other words, Im quite dumb? Bt seriously, After what I did, Im really feeling guilty to hurt you. Its my fault & Ive apologised so many times. & yet you just dont seem to get it, instead you keep nagging & talking back at me. I just cant take it when youre angry w me just for the smallest thing Ive done. Im willing to apologise & giving in. Bt youre stiu not satisfied, I dontkno what to say anymore.

PSS; Now that we're okk. I'll try to think before I act. I'll try to be smart & change. Bt cn you pls spare a thought for me, I dont deserve all the scoldings. Im after all yur girl..

We'll Linger on ...

2008-07-08T20:04:00.002+08:00

Good News is, I shall get to stay in schl & study till Im smart when Pecs are gng to OBS. Yepp, badnews, MrKang called my brother & Im stiu not allowed to go. I dontkno what MrKang said, bt I do kno what my brother said; No. Wth! Ahh, I shall get over it. I'll try to stay cheerful (((:

Wow, we had 3free periods free of Maths agn! Like, we had it last week too. Bt stiu, we had maths test after schl. It was total horrible, din kno how to do last qns. Dont even think I read it in the textbook or elearning. Haha, Stupid man. Ahh, whatever, can passs anw. LOLS! Went meet Dear after test. & home arnd 6.

I stiu wn my Milk bottle Karennnnn ):

Short post today. Im not touching those things in my bag nowadays. Lols, lazy people. Heh (:

You'll always be my Baby

2008-07-05T19:49:00.002+08:00

Im telling you now, I am NOT gng to Obs anymore. All thanks to my Beloved brother. He said it was too dangerous, I might die there. He said Im not suppose to go under water & he said Singapore is not as safe as how I thought it was. Zz, So there goes my five-day camp & ponning a week's class. Thats stupidly horrible okkk, imagine on that day, I had to go schl & see all my Pecs friends board the stupid bus & Im left alone in schl. & Karen & Honey will be gng their National camp on the same day as us. Therefore, Im stupidly left alone in the stupid classroom & had to attend all the stupid lessons on all five days. Omg, I really wn to cry.

Went schl for Pec meeting & Obs training. I was wondering, I shouldnt have went. You kno how hard was it to tell Mrkang that I cant go? I cant control myself either. Anw, the training was bloody hell. We did runs, man's pushups (whish I simply cant do), some manly strechings. So tiring after that, I kno I would have died there.

After the training, Mrkang told me that he would try & call my Brother & convince him that Obs is absolutely safe. Mrkan said these 'He din go for NS lah, thats why he doesnt kno how safe it is' Ugh, so totally true. So, Wish me luck, I kno I said I wasnt looking forward to it, Bt I rlly wish to go, just for the experience that I cn get once in a lifetime. TT

Youve Stabbed me Deep & Hard

2008-07-04T19:51:00.003+08:00

So, like I said, Im suppose to be updating everyday. Hahaha! Ytd was stupid, my Lil bro claimed that he reached home at 7, so he get the comp first & used it for the whole night, which means, I cant get to use comp ytd. Retarded shyt. Anw, ytd was not so good, I felt depress in th morning & after schl. Went dance & I killed myself by doing all those moves extremely strenuous and thus, Im having a muscle ache today, God damn me.

It was good today. Hahah! Oral exams after schl, forgot to bring uniform or rather, I do not kno that theres a need to wear uniform. However, Dear lend me his smelly one. HAHA! How sweet. Oh, & now, I nid to go shyt. Be right back. Ahh, Stupid. Both my toilets are occupied. Idiottttt~ Ive been constipating for so many days & now, I wna shyt, no place for me to do it. Ughhh~

So, oral. It was crap shyt. Everyone was not at all nervous & we were like laughing & being mad in th waiting room not caring whether we're noisy or anything. Hahas, So damn lame. When I get into the Exam venue, the invigilator was like so fucking stern-looking lah. Wth, I was trying hard to smile & they stiu wouldnt smile back or anything & keep asking me stupid qns that I dontkno how to answer. Dulan'ness.

Anw, Dearie bought cakes for our belated anni today. How sweet of him, bt ofcus thats when I insisted on buying then he was willing to buy okk. Lols, Bt stiu, I really appreciate whatever he did lah. Waiting for me after oral & together we go buy. Hahahas, Thanks Dearie. Ohyes, nowadays had been quarrelling for really smalll minute stuffs. I cried myself out that night wishing that we will not carry on quarrelling. I dontkno what had gone wrong in our r/s. We seldom quarrells so often, its only since April or dontkno when. Im willing to stay calm & give in. Bt we should just try not to quarrell as much? Ive said this sooo many stupid times, bt nothing change, we're stiu quarrelling. So now, Im gna try & give ourselves another pity chance. I do not wna giveup just like this, Loveyou Honey.

Ps, I finally shyt out ((:

Dreams Dont Come True

2008-07-02T19:19:00.002+08:00

People, Stella's back! Like, Seriously back. I kno I hasnt been updating so much on this stupid blog, Bt from now! I'll try to blog as often as I can. Hahahas, I'll Tryyy! So, Test starting today, booooring. & this week, there's like so many free periods in a day lah, So coool! Ohyess, Before I continue anything HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHESNA & EECHING; TWO BIATCHES OF SEC3! Ha, may the both of you continue to stay strong & happpppy like you all always does. (((:

Anw, Whr was I? Free periods. So, I was busy doing my Amaths holiday homework during all the free periods & I finally done! Which was good, that left me w chinese li jie wen da! Whis is gna be horrible! There's like 18 li jie wen das left to do okkkk, My FGod! Im sorrry to say that, bt this is seriously irritating. Came to think of it, Rachel Ng Mei Yi ps'ed me on Tues! So mean & Im so alone.

Next, Happy 5th month Dearie! Its long alr, we stiu havent get to celebrate anything. You told me youre gna get us a cake for our first celebration after so many months, bt in the end, it was all nothing. I kno you had the heart to do it, bt why cant we atleast be together on our anni rather than being w yur friends? Forget it, its over alr. So, I hope we're really gna celebrate every month (;

Ending this post soon, cus Im gna watch Final Destination 2! Night cycling for pecs is next Sat, look forward? & Next month Outward Bound, Im sooooo not looking forward, I feel scared. Hahaha! Assholes, bye!

Dearest

2008-06-28T14:23:00.002+08:00

Its been long since I posted. Schl's started & it was absolutely boring, Lessons were boring & test are starting nextweek. Stiu havent got over all my holidays homeworks which is gna due on Monday. If not done, Im gna be dead meat. Anw, Its been a month, So Yea. Im having cramps now, damn it. Its pain like fuck, Im gna die soon.

PS, I miss you Lewis Ong.

Happy days with you

2008-06-18T08:43:00.002+08:00

Th time now is 845, so I have like 10mins to type this short & sweet post. Hahaha! Before I really continues, Happy Birthday Honey! May you last long w yur bastard. Ha! Love you loads okk!

Heh, schl's starting next week, Homeworks stiu not done yet. Im trying to finish all th multiple choices in the chinese paper during working time. LOLS! Seriously, theres so many la. Wth~ Oh & Im changing my blogsong. Its nice, so touching. Hahaha! Siao. Recently, Dear & me are stiu getting along well, no more stupid quarrells. I feel nice now (((:

Now, I seriously dontkno what crap cn I talk abt now. Hais, Its been long since I saw my girlfriends, Hohoho! Bt its okkkkk! Schl's starting. Ha!

I am always here for you

2008-06-12T20:22:00.004+08:00

Hellllos! Its been long since I last touched the comp. Hoho, all thanks too my fully booked holis. Tell you, its my first time having this kind of holidaysssss okk! So, Im happy now (((: Having friends tht cares, having boyf tht loves me, having fully-packed holis. HAHAHA! Bt seriously, I have absolutely no time to do my homeworks & stuffs. Like, really damn busy cn. Im lacking of sleeep too! Assss~

Ohyessss, Miss my girlfriends like shytttt cn. Esp Karen & Honey! God, din really chat much these holidays & cant even get to see you all. ): So, I reallly miss you all so much. Serious!

Nowadays, Dear & me really had a fun time together, although we din spent much tym seeing each other everyday, atleast we din quarrell as much? Appreciate what you've done to me, always thoughtful & care so much for me, Loves (((:

Anw, Crave for this phone, I likeeeee! Purple is niceeee - Sony Ericsson w380i

Im serious abt everything

2008-06-02T19:07:00.003+08:00

Its been long since I last updated. Lols, was working till v late atnight & also waking up early in the morning almost everyday, din had any chance to use the comp. Ha! Work was tiring yet shuangness cus got lots of money. HAHAHA! I was craving for either NewUrbanMale sandals or the mphosis slipper. Moneymoney~ Bt work is stiu not funnnn, I scalded my hand like twice lah & I stained my skinnies. Wth~

Anw, Seems like everthing will be over, now I really understand everything. Love doesnt need to see each other every single day. Love is just to see each other happy & smile. I love you with all my heart baby, youre not at all bad to me. I hope you doesnt agreee with what others says.

I mean what I said

2008-05-28T15:24:00.002+08:00

Holidays are super boring, suppose to go for leadership training bt I din kno what tym Im suppose to be thr, so forget it. Lols! Dance was disgusting okkkkk~ We're gna practice for Thanksgiving & so we have to have lots & lots of stupid practices. & dance practice during the holis are like wholeeeeee fucking day. Fuck dance, zz!

Work was more stupid, I kno Im the one willing to work there. Bt its like so unfair cn, my work partner for the past three days just push all the blames to me lah. Telling the boss that I was the one counting the sales so the sales is wrong. Truthly, shes the one counting lah. Wth~ Dulan okkk. I was not talking bad abt her cn.

So pissed off lah.

New Ending New Start

2008-05-24T08:54:00.004+08:00

Wasnt a good day ytd, school was superb boring. Its like we played games thats like for 3yr kids. Ugh, cutting of bottle & doing origami. Its really uninteresting & all. We wasnt even with our class, we just sat far away from our class. Lols! Chatted w Ain & JingRong at the PE store when everyione's having a talk in the hall. Really missed out alot from her, Loveeeee! Cleaning up after that & was dismissed at 1240. Cool? I think cleaning our classroom is a waste of time, its like, we're gna use it agn anw. Ha!

Like I said, it wasnt a good day either after schl. I dontkno what youre thinking, & you dontkno what am I thinking. So, ended being hurt & all. I was on th verge of anger so seriously I could not make myself to apologise. My bad, Im sorrry. After all these, I kno I cant lose you.

Anw, Thanks those who comforted me & be by my side all along.

Pls dont walk infront of me, when you just hurt me. It'll hurt even more.

Lovely, Dont do this to me

2008-05-22T21:33:00.002+08:00

Forget abt the last post though. Was emoing like shyt, Dear told me to be strong. Seriously, If I really can, I wont be crying.

Anw, was having post exam programs these few days. Went supreme court & clark quay ytd for NE journey. The weather is like so fucking hot, like you cn melt if you stay outside the whole day. Omg? We went to the courts, saw many lawyers which was wayyyy cool, sat dontkno what boat, bt it was really fun apart from the stupid weather. Ugh.

Had inter-class games today & it was gng on well & fun. Table tennis might be boring bt people stiu enjoys. Hahahs, Its good though. Trekking on Sunday. Wont be gng perhaps, dont like to wear pec shirt. I stiu owe OngLiying her shirt. LOLS! Powerpoint presentation today, booring. Everyone's sleeping & not listening. Anw, it stiu went on smoothly. I learnt a lesson though, never tell other people to do work for you. Hahahas, Just kidding. Bt you should do it yurself right? Lols. (:

Gna end here, Seoul Garden tmrw? I dontkno whether I can make it or not. ):